I get it.
I get the shame you feel for not being able to action all of the parenting tools you have learnt: how to be more patient, more tolerant, more nurturing, more understanding.
I know how important it is to you to be a better mother. I understand how much you sacrifice for your kids - every day - even though it never feels like you’re doing enough.
I know that you secretly think everyone else is coping better than you; you feel guilty for not being happier; you are terrified you have already passed on your own trauma.
I get that life as a mama is one big contradiction: that kids bring out both the best and worst in you and that parenting is both exhilarating and exasperating.
I get it because I was you!
Becoming a parent revealed all of my latent childhood trauma. And after having three kids in three years, there were points when I felt they would be better off without me. But, just like you, I knew there had to be a way to no longer feel so broken and toxic. I got the support I needed to release my rage, anxiety and shame, to reparent my wounded inner child and to feel whole and safe enough to show up as the mama, partner and woman I wanted to be.
Now I help others do the same…